Tears and pain

Song By James Blunt

I went inside the car and gave my wife a hug. I whispered to her ear, " My aunt passed away just now...". She was as shocked as I was. " How? When? Why?...." she asked. I sent her to the station and said that I'm gonna take urgent leave and bring my mom to Johor to attend the funeral.
As I drove to pick up my brother along the way my mind was in state of shock and hurt for the tragic loss of my closest aunt. I pity her children, my cousins, two of whom were getting married this year and the next. Not forgetting the youngest who was away in Pahang University.
When we reached her house, my mom could not even lift up the veil covering my aunt's face. She told my brother to do it. It pained my heart to see my mother crying like that. After the funeral rites and sending my sister back to Pasir Ris I went home. As I lay down on my bed I hugged my wife closer than ever. Life is short. You have to cherish every moment you spend on your loved ones.

Cry

Song By James Blunt.



A lot of people who are close to me are depressed or have been depress lately. Being going through that stage I can sort of relate to what they are going through. From my past experience these are the things that help me pull through those difficult times.

• First of all if you are a spiritual person, always know that God is always there. He will never leave you even if your sins are as much as the bubbles in the sea. I mean no matter what you re doing or have done you must realise that He is still keeping you alive rite? You probably still have food to eat, clothes to wear or at least the air to breathe. Someone up there still loves ya baby.


• Most likely also you have friends or family who loves you and most probably be there for you if you need them. Go to them. They probably care for you more than you know. Love is all around man. Give it, share it, live it - live for them, your brother, sister, children, father, mother, spouse, friend or whoever close to you. A hug once in while can be very therapeutic.


• Be positive. Whatever you are going through, you probably get over it. I know this is an old cliche but still " Always look on the bright side of life ". There are people who are probably more troubled than you. Also know life as it is, is always like that. We have highs and downs, happiness and sorrow, love and lost etc. Look beyond the pain and find strength in yourselves or your loved ones ( refer to the point above )

• Believe in yourself. A lot people may say negative stuff about you to bring you down. You should try to ignore these goons even if they are your close friends/family. Even if you're short, tall, fat, thin, ugly, pretty, pimple faced, dark skinned .... so what? I mean God made the way you are. You should feel good about yourself. A lot people say not so nice things about me too but I try my best to take it constructively and move on.

Well I know these things are easier said then done but hey, no one can help you change the condition you're in now if you dont try to help it yourself first. Now close your eyes, take a deep breath and relax. Live life to the fullest and enjoy. You gotta learn to take it easy once in while you know.

If you leave

Song by OMD

People come and go in your life. That's the way it is. Some friends that you meet may last you a lifetime but those are the rare few. Most of them you will see in some point of your life and then because of the different pathways you take, you part ways. Some of the best friends that I made in my life I have not seen for many years. That's life I guess.
One of my 'colleague' is leaving for another job. Although she is just my client I'm still sad to see her go cos Ive been working with her for about 3 or 4 years despite the fact I don't see her often. She helped me out a number of times with stuff and all that. I gave her a call and a box of chocolates that I just gift wrapped yesterday.
Sometimes I do think whether I should stay on with this job. Main reason why I stay cos my boss is very good and my pay is quite stable. Nonetheless one day who knows... maybe...

Unwell

Song by Matchbox 20

I sat at my usual place at Tekka Market a few Thursdays ago eating my Nasi Goreng Ikan Bilis. It has become my normal 'Thursday evening' routine to eat dinner at the market there before going to Anguilla mosque for prayers and sermons. As I was eating a foreigner sat beside and as his food was being served he asked" Am I suppose to eat all these together?" ," No ... separate, separate", replied the Indian waiters around him. I told him, " You suppose to eat the Bryiani with the Mutton Curry and the Prata with the Dhal Curry ". He smiled and said "Oh- thanks". We started chatting and I found out that he was on business trip and was flying to Vietnam the next day. He asked me why was I wearing the skull cap and I told him that I am Muslim and that is the way of the Prophet, the cap and the beard - pointing to my so called goatee. He was surprised when I told him about Indian Muslims. He thought Indian were all Hindus and only Pakistan were Muslims. I didn't stayed long cos I had to for the prayers and all that but its nice to meet up some foreigner once in a while and clear up some doubt about my religion.
Ive been suffering from a bad case of cold recently. Nowadays its hard for me to get a fever ... maybe cos of all the fruits that I have every lunch-about $2 worth of pineapple/honeydew/watermelon or papaya. All of which I would consume as I watch the fishes at the koi pond. Well I hope to get back on my feet soon cos I really need to train for my IPPT.